Nick: Day 31 - The Mind Game...

Day 31: Core Cardio & Balance (5:20am)

Recovery week has been the toughest week for me so far.  Not because of the workout, but because of my uncontrollable brain.  It's killing me!  My weigh in on Monday has me feel chained down to something and I can't break free.  It really should not be bugging me because I KNOW I'm progressing very well.  I'm in three belt holes and can EASILY buy new khaki's or jeans at least a size smaller, if not two.  I'm able to complete more and more in each workout... just can't get over that I lost absolutely nothing last week.  Week 4 was my most successful week as far as progress in my routines and amount of reps I can complete.  (was finally keeping up w/ the people in the videos, too!)  I know I'm gaining muscle and I know that muscle weighs more than fat, but it's still a little tough going from losing 3 to 4 lbs per week for three weeks, then big fat zero with week 4.

Maybe I'm just a little scared on how I hit a terrible plateau through the 2nd month of P90X at the beginning of the year (which made me quit and get into an obsession with running through the spring and summer).  I do not want this to happen.  I can NOT quit this!  I've done too well and come too far.  I have heard and read in numerous places that Phase 2 of INSANITY can be considered the "Results Month" as it's far more intense than Phase 1.  I honestly can't wait to start Phase 2 on Monday morning because I'm really wanting to feel the burn again.  (A good full body muscle burn is a great motivator for me)  Let's me know I gave my body something that it needs and it will only get better as I continue.

On top of all of this, I'm getting what feels like will be a pretty bad head cold.  The congestion is getting worse and worse by the second.  ...sigh...

This mental struggle is taking out of me.  Maybe my brain will be on a different and more positive note tomorrow.  Until then...